I know, I know. It's been a long time.

Here's the deal. Sean moved out on Thursday. It was pretty ugly, and it hurts a lot. It's hard being alone all the time, and I can hardly afford anything. So the internet is shut off. I'm updating from my phone, which is kinda hard to do.

Rob and I are not exclusive. I doubt we ever will be. We had a falling out because of me falling in love. I didnt think he could handle it, and I don't want to get hurt, so I ended it. It was really hard- I cried for days, and we didnt speak at all.

But a few days ago, he texted me. He said he missed me. I told him I was sorry for being a girl, and that I want to be friends, but he can't say things he doesn't mean anymore. I made the assumption that everything he said on my birthday was a drunken lie.

He said that he never said that. He admitted defeat quickly, but it hurt just the same.

He picked me up and we went to a lake and just talked for two hours. I was worried it would still be weird. I don't know what he really thinks.

But he spent the night last night. We had crazy passionate drunk sex, and passed out. This morning, we woke up and stayed in bed for three hours. We touched each other for an hour, kissing and staring at each other, giggling. We even started to eskimo kiss- I think that's our "thing" now. It was wonderful.

I work with him tonight, so hopefully it goes well. I'm gonna try to talk him into staying over again.

There's your update. I'll try to update again soon, but doing this on my phone sucks. Keep your fingers crossed.