I'm sitting in the middle of our campground. I'm in the same place that Mike used to bring me every year for my birthday. It's weird being here without him, but there are a lot of cool people.
The only kicker is that I miss the hell out of Rob. He was supposed to be here, but decided not to because of the breakup. I saw something earlier that reminded me of one of our inside jokes, and I wanted to take a picture and send it to him- but I can't now. We hardly talk at work, and we don't talk at all outside of it. I miss him, I really do.
Everyone here is a friend of his- I met them all because of him. It meant a lot that they were still willing to let me come, and we're getting along famously. They even spent a half hour last night trash talking Joan, even though I haven't said a word about her or the situation.
It's just hard hearing all these stories about Rob. I came here to forget, and I am surrounded by reminders. I hate how much I still love him.
So I'm off to try out some water slides. I just needed to vent for a minute.
..And also, I broke my celibacy vow. I made it two weeks and two days before sleeping with some random dude from the bar this past Wednesday. I am all kinds of fail this week.
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It's good to know you are at least living and breathing and such. Sending all the love I can muster your way sweetie
Where are you!?!?!
Hey I remember you mentioned being a sex therapist is something you're interested in but didn't know how to get there. This is the website to the american association of sexuality educators counselors and therapists. Hope it gives you some good leads - you can do it!! I think you'd be great ;)
http://www.aasect.org/directory.asp
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