Ownership.

I feel like I'm going to have a wild streak coming up. Where I hook up with some random person, probably someone I shouldn't.

And it's mostly because I'm bored.

My sex life is pretty good, but that's only when it exists. I'm getting antsy again, to do something different and new. To get that thrill back. I don't even think it's about sex or getting off at this point- it's about, as fucked up as it sounds, being creative and different. I take a weird sort of pride in my sexuality, and when it turns dull, I feel like I'm not living up to who I'm supposed to be.

This leads to an identity crisis. Am I my sexuality or is my sexuality me? Which owns which?

Any readers have any opinions? I know you can't get the full grasp of me through a blog, but most of you have a general idea of who I am and what I've done. I think some of you would have some great insight on it, and that would be wonderful right about now.